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Being offline, Goofy Smiles, and Priority foo

I've been offline quite a bit this week/end.

Feeling under the weather as of pretty much Thursday morning has slowed me down.

The growing child makes it even harder. Work has slipped on me a day or two primarily because of the distractions at home with him. The balance becomes a struggle at times but it's one I want (nay, need) to find.

For now I find myself often delayed leaving the house for an appt. Being on the run at a moment's notice. And more often than not having to put Aiden at the top of my priority list with no warning to anyone who isn't in the room.

I have a lot of irons in the fire right now. And I'm too indignant to start pulling them out. I don't like failing on any of my commitments. It however would seem that one iron is mostly pulled out of the fire (I'll be possibly finalizing that one later(Thursday) of this week) Other's are progressing nicely. Ironically the iron being pulled out is related to the one that is beginning to glow. (Obscure? Vague? Get used to it. More soon)

But, let me first explain that I am goofy-happy over Aiden. Touching his head, watching him play, hearing him laugh, looking into his eyes... It becomes the realization of ongoing magickal work. I see the universe in him. Ultimate potential contained within mortal fragility. I see my own life no longer as a finite point but as a mark on an infinite time line. Years of playing with genealogy mean just a little bit more.

I look at him and I find myself smiling in a goofy manner. Like very little else really matters. Here are the latest pictures of Aiden I am now required to post. (Click the thumbnails to see the full pictures)

So where does this put me?

This post has taken me the better part of 3 hrs to write. I find myself for the most part offline of late and running errands. My cell phone is a continual trip between what does and what doesn't work. I am trying to stay available for everyone while still getting done the work that keeps everyone alive and healthy (self included) and food on the table.

To present an old joke... If you haven't heard from me.. it's probably not you.. it's probably me.

Ran out of things to say on this topic. So for now, let me conclude with:

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As someone who is a dad, I know exactly what you are talking about. Of course, now both my daughter and I communicate via LJ :-)

I totally get the amazing feelings that accompany being a parent. Wait until you get to see him doing things all by himself. I love that.

As for lots of pokers in the fire. I have been prone to doing that myself. I am trying desperately to make time for the things that are most important and hoping for a time when I can get involved in more activities and learning opportunities that interest me. As I am always telling some folks in OLO staff, "Don't sign on for more than you can realistically do."


Amen, brother.

Tantalizing and life stopping. Nothing is the same anymore, and that's both a great and suckful thing. But the smiles, the babyhead smells, the coos and chuckles, the gripping the fingers and that look into your eyes that you are the most important thing in the universe right. that. second. That's it. That's it.

Wouldn't trade it for anything... and it just gets better.

I miss being able to go out with my wife socially whenever we want... but not a lot else.

Wow. He totally looks like his Daddy!

See life, not as a miniscule mark on an infinite line, but as a single ball in an infinite pinball machine, a ball in which you are the hamster running like mad to avoid those flippers...

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