For me, I'm afraid of having gone. My life has been rather upended more than once... 'Right after'.
This is along the lines of, Whenever you see a cat with a striped tail, someone in your family dies. You're honestly not afraid of a cat with a striped tail, but at the same time.. the idea of going to get one is just like tempting fate.
Thus, the whole, "Gentle doctor", "Valium", "Breathing exercises" is not the suggestions I am looking for. This is deeper and more psychological/magickal if you will.