August 20th, 2002

Andrei in the office


Before leaving the office, I called Dr. S. to ask to set up an additional appointment.

Unable to sleep I was up until about 3:30 am working on my Comic-con photos and my notes for my Tarot class.

I set the alarm for 6am and hit the snooze bar at 6, 8, 8:30, and 8:45.

I got in to the office at about 9:45. My manager has been kept apprised of my situation. My manager marvels at my family on a regular basis.

I called Schugar Funeral Home to tell them what info I had. They were compassionate and understanding. There was no talk of the bill and I told them I would keep them apprised.

On my desktop was a message left within 15 minutes of when I left:

(06:23) SisAIM: Your sister is starting to have seizures. It is 9:22 pm, here, I will wait another 45 min to see if you log back on.

This morning I have called: Shadyside, Presby, Braddock, Western Psych, And Monitfiore. None have any listing of a patient under her maiden or married name. I am further told that since it's suicide attempt related, they may not release any information anyway.

This coupled with the BS concerning my dad about a year ago, has of course planted seeds of doubt in my mind. this point I don't know if she's dying in some Pgh Hospital and my mother is about to get her hands on another child to screw up; or, two very sick women are playing a prank on me.

This is my life today.
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Enslin Torso

Losing composure

After this morning's frantic calls I've made little to no headway. My sister's friend logged on quietly and I was fortunate that a friend who's also watching out caught it.

Here now the latest...

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Andrei in the office

About Shadyside's ICU and NICU

I've been asked this alot today. Apparently, Shadyside has 6 ICU areas.
Shadyside's NICU is Neuro-ICU and their Neo-natal is NNICU.

And yet.. still no info. She's not even a patient of the hospital.
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Enslin colour

I'm holding on by a (conversation) thread....

The last conversation started about 2 hours ago and went for about an hour. I had a network failure and work come crashing down on me. I'm working on about 2 hours of sleep since yesterday. Since finishing up, I've had more work explode and several people email me that I accidentally posted a name in the last message. So, too distract myself, I wrote an algorithym to edit the document for me.

At this point I have about 5 people trying to get information as it would seem my mother has made this a personal issue. And seems to be obfuscating information for everyone else. My mother has it in her mind that I was not there for my father so this issue is not my concern and "do not bother." Sadly I can hear those words coming out of her mouth clearly.

I thank everyone who has called, emailed, written, and just in general been supportive to me as I've been enduring through this. It really means alot to me as I try to get information.

The short form. What I've been told. My sister is to have her 'Blood flushed' because the by overdosing her drugs she has, made herself toxic" I should be due another email shortly with more info if my sister's friend holds to the schedule he gave me.

There is a lot of very personal information about my relationship with my mother and things I didn't know about my sister's ex-husband. Things are getting beyond frustrating, but this is everything that is known so far.

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Andrei in the office

mail received

X-Apparently-To: myemail> via -40.-120.-126.58; 20 Aug 2002 18:53:50 -0700 (PDT)
X-Originating-IP: []
From: frend of D*** by way of her friend B***
To: my email
X-OriginalArrivalTime: 21 Aug 2002 01:53:50.0683 (UTC) FILETIME=[98A202B0:01C248B5]

Subject: this is B*** about D***
Date: Tue, 20 Aug 2002 21:53:50 -0400

I spoke to a socialworker about this situation. She is going to find out which hospital D*** is in, and notify me by noon tomorrow.

Meanwhile, all we can do is wait. Otherwise, the flushing worked, and D*** is responsive. She is in and out of consciousness, and between critical and stable. Her platelets dropped, she was in remission, and they are giving her Prednisone through IV. Also Danazol, chemo drug. I know your father had a positive X factor and had a positive lupus anti-coagulant, D*** does too. She does not have Lupus, remind you, she just has a low immunity. D*** is also getting frozen platelets, which she is responding to, and being tube fed. She is on a resporator. D*** was smoking up to a pack and a half a day. Her lungs were not clear with the amount she was intaking.

Whatelse, she is going to be monitored for 48 hours, here. No transfer, yet. This is all I know, so far. I will EMail more when I know.


chaoticgoodnik put it very well on IM:
reason for cautious optimism
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Andrei in the office

Last conversation of the day.

This conversation occurred right after the email I received. I have an ounce of relief at the situation. But until I can talk to a Doctor, I am going to be f***ing nuts. So much doesn't make sense. So much is just too damned confusing. to be honest, I really don't believe that anyone would be so angry as to keep another person out of the loop.

Granted, I have to admit, i don't know what I'd do if i was the one who know and my mother was the one trying to find out. I can be all self-noble now and say that I wouldn't keep her out... but the anger and pain between me and my mother runs deep.

This is even harder on me, because I distanced myself from my sister because she was living with my mother who would lash out at me and she'd lash out at my sister to get at me. I tlkd my sister that I couldn't talk to her if it would only server to give my mother another reason to be abusive at my sister.

And I wonder if I'll ever have a normal relationship with someone....

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Enslin Torso

As I realize I've posted alot today....

Again, I need to thank people who've been beyond supportive. I'm going to go take a dinner break from the office as a component has broken and I need to fix it. I also need to finish my packet for my tarot Class tomorrow. I'm missing a church meeting tonight I really wanted to go to.

I'll be online this evening after dinner working on this stuff and then trying to post something that's more about me and how I'm doing with all this. the internal pain is very hard to explain as it doesn't come from where I think it's supposed to be coming from.

More later.

Comments are always welcomed (and appreciated tonight)

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