Andrei Freeman (lordandrei) wrote,
Andrei Freeman

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The self torture begins anew

Well, I've found motivation to get back into a diet again. I don't believe that I'm as strong physically as I should be. I'm also worried about some of the health risks of my family line.

So, I've decided the best way to commence this is through ritual.

First, I've examined my status.

The good news is, that I'm not as heavy as I thought that I was. At my worst, I measured 202#. That was the first motivation to start. I managed through some diet regulation and changes to push down to 195#. That was a few months ago. I've tried to maintain that regulation...but have faltered. I could see it in my face. So... I decided to start again today... I started by (gulp) weighing in.

When I weighed in during the last time, I usually did it after a shower. Today I did it fully clothed. Imagine my surprise when the same scale I'd been using said *195*

This is encouraging because it means that at least I'm maintaining. Now to really actually make it work for me.

So... what is healthy. Well, going by a chart at it looks like about 146 to 160 is good for me. That's not a lot. Well, 35-50#; For me the importance is also to transform my gut into muscle mass.

So, what's all this ritual stuff? After Magick 101; I was given the 'blueprints' to ceremonial ritual

  1. Banish
  2. Purification
  3. Consecration
  4. General Invocation / Evocation
  5. The Oath
  6. Charge to the Spirit
  7. License to Depart
  8. Banishing
  9. Writing of the record.

So, I've started the process. I've banished and begun purification of self.

Okay, so maybe some of this sounds a bit strange. But I figure if I can formally dedicate myself to a purpose; truly identifying my goals and finding that which may cause me to stumble; mitered of course with an actual diet plan. I think this will be a good thing.

Thus: Goals. Written down for me and the world to see.
  1. Wed Feb 26: 5#: Goal 190
  2. Never leave the house unshaven again
  3. Mar 8: Rite of Saturn: 188 maybe 185#
  4. Seriously begin exercising. Stick with it.
  5. Mar 31: Replace wardrobe.

Well, it's just a start....

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